Tuesday, October 26, 2010

updates galore

Okay, been keeping my agility blogs updated, need to do a better job here. Well, I am happy to report that we got new gutters on the house and all of the water issues we were having have gone away! We have had several really good long rains since we put the gutters in and the basement and upstairs window have stayed dry! I am so excited to have figured out this issue and wish we would have done so sooner. Tony also ripped out the bathroom skylight and roofed over it. We left it un-insulated for a while to make sure he got everything sealed tightly and we have had 0 leaks so now he just has to find the time to insulate it, dry wall over it and then of course we will have to repaint the whole bathroom. I am so bad with colors so this should be interesting! We still haven't ordered a new skylight for the bedroom. Oh yeah, we decided to keep this one a skylight but go for a real skylight, not a plastic bubble. We have a real skylight in the dining room and it is beautiful and doesn't leak so we will try this approach for the bedroom as well. Oh heck, I guess we will have to paint the bedroom too. Another color choice, ICK! Anyway, we may just have a paint a thon because we have paint now for the guest room and are still debating about what color to paint the living room. I am guessing when the weather turns crappy and we are stuck in the house, the painting will occur. My stepdad is coming out for thanskgiving so many projects will probably start then as well. Tony is going to need help with the skylight as I am afraid of heights and will not be on the roof at all. I am hoping we can get that ordered and they can work on that while he is here. I also hope we can get the trim figured out for the bathroom window too. It looks so yucky with trim and the framing and we can't put the old stuff back on since it is damaged. Of course that means changing the trim on the other window, but oh well. Poor tony, he has so many projects on his plate!

We also recently got a dining room table made. I had been looking at tables for while and never seeing anything we liked. Well, we took a trip to Paxico and found a guy that makes tables and he made us one to our specifications. It is made of KS maple and it looks antique and I love it. It has benches instead of chairs and i was a little concerned about that, but they push up under the table, thus saving a ton of space. It really fits the room and is the perfect shape and lenght. It was well worth the money we paid for it and he made it very quickly so we could have it for thanksgiving. I hope to work with this guy to make more furniture in the future and possibly teach tony how to make furniture as well.

Last update. Well boo hiss, I have gained a ton of weight. I haven't been exercising other than training my dogs and walking to and from my car to work. I just haven't been motivated, haven't cared. I keep trying to recall those feelings when I worked out of how great I felt and how great my clothes fit. Unfortunately, lately, I just haven't cared. Been eating out most meals, just don't care. This is all going to bite me in the ass in the end. I am already barely fitting into my jeans, had to go up a size or two just to be comfortable. Tried on new clothes, couldnt' fit well into any thing or any size, almost cried then said fuck it. I just don't care right now. My biggest thing right now is working my dogs. I come home, either eat or go to the field or vice versa. I don't care what goes in my mouth as long as it fills my belly. Tony has virtually stopped cooking at all. It is a very dangerous and unhealthy habit of convience we have both come into. I hate the way I look right now, figured the comments from my relatives would be enough to bounce me back to reality but it didn't. I wish I could get out of this habit. It is not good for either of our bodies or our health. Tony is bigger than he has ever been and so am I. I am at least up to what I was in CO although I have been afraid to weight. My clothes tell the story. I need to just start walking again and go from there. Being at nationals motivated me to run all out and I was sure out of breath every run. I need to get back into shape, should probably get back with my private trainer. BLAH!

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Why did i become a homeowner?

I think I am hitting my final straw with some things, namely our house. Don't get me wrong, I love our house but the constant flooding of various rooms is starting to get to me. I guess I am thinking ahead of if we ever move, what will we have to fix in order to be able to sell our house and make some sort of money, not loose it. We have spent probably 1000 bucks on fixing up the front yard so it has more curb appeal, but we still have so far to go. The porch is very basically put together and needs some sprucing up, namely something to cover the bare posts that hold the porch up and some decorative gravel to accentuate the walk up to the porch. I would also like to add a nice porch swing as well, but we would probably take that with us when we moved. We have added some planters but need some more permanent types as these are plastic and not the best in the world. Anyway, the two biggest issues we have right now are the leaking basement/master bedroom and the floor. I have called today to get a free estimate for new gutters as tony thinks this is the main issue with the flooding basement and part of the flooding skylight issue. Yesterday, we had a downpour that lasted for several hours and one of the south facing windows in our master bath started gushing water. It had previously been leaking but it was more of a drip, drip, not a gush, gush. We had to take down the trim and there is considerable water damage to the dry wall, window frame and of course the paint. I just decided to have a big pity party for myself so I sat down in the tub i never get to use and had myself a good old cry. Tony said the window was dry above it so we must either have another leaky skylight that is feeding into the window, or we just have a leaky roof. I hope today he will be able to get on the roof and assess the damage. I hope we can get a home loan and just get some of this fixed. I am tired of the leaky skylights and just want to rip them out. Who needs a sky light when they are laying in the tub anyway? The sky light in the bedroom hasn't leaked in a year probably but we are afraid to put the trim back in and fix the dry wall until we are sure it won't ever leak again. Tony has become good and dry wall patching so I know he can patch it and then we can re-paint, but I say rip the fuckers out. I am tired of the loud storms, the lightning shows, having to sleep downstairs when it hails, and worrying about the dry wall constantly. I am all for patching with plywood, re-insulating and putting dry wall over it. I mean, I am married to an electrician, he can put up new lights or something to compensate for the lack of light. We have many windows in the bedroom so we have plenty of natural light. The only time we need more light is at night and it is dark outside anyway so the skylight is of no help. Here is my dream: Rip out the whirlpool tub that I never use and probably won't ever use, put a claw foot tub in and a stand-up shower and get rid of the skylights and the leaky window. Wonder if I can make this dream come true? Of course all of this takes money, of which we are very low on now.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Signed up for a nrew session of training but stressed

I finally used up all of my training sessions and signed up for five more. I think having someone come up with new routines keeps you so much more interested in going to the gym. While I am still only getting into the gym around 2-3 times a week, I feel like I am making huge progress. I still haven't lost any weight at all, in fact I have gained a pound, but I feel great! I can tell a huge difference in the body fat content of my butt and thighs and my muscles are starting to show definition. Funny though, my belly fat of course has not gone anywhere and if anything, seems to have gotten bigger. I do feel more slim and trim through my waist area, but that gut is still there. I feel like my pants are actually a lot tighter now, in the gut area and in the thigh area but the thigh area is because my thighs are getting super muscular. I know belly fat is the last thing to go so I am being patient but I hate to have to go up a size in pants:( I need to get my fat percentage measured again because I feel like my back fat and leg fat has really been shaved down quite a bit. I actually wore shorts twice last week and that is saying alot! I won't wear shorts unless my legs are quite tone! I haven't even been wearing shorts to the gym, even though it is super hot in there!

Now to the stressed part. Well, Tony is laid off again. We have no clue how long this lay off is going to be but I am super stressed. Last time it took three weeks for his unemployment to actually kick in and we can't go that long without income. I did pull our show entries for June and will not enter the July show or regionals in August at this point to try and save money. Unfortunately, we have been very naughty with our credit card and it has a bit of debt on it and i think that is what is bothering me. We have bought many concert tickets with it and I have been using it to get the business started up so it is a bit more full than I would like. I think what scares me the most is that we both have older vehicles with tons of mileage that could or couldn't konk out at any moment and both of us commute to work so we couldn't get by with one car. Tony has been very lucky to have a shop vehicle but companies everywhere are doing away with shop trucks so I have been holding my breath that they won't take his away. You can't imagine the savings we incur with him not having to use his own vehicle anymore or having to pay for gas. I think someone told me that they figured it up and they were spending an extra 10K a year to commute with their own vehicle and gas! YIKES! I commute 20 minutes but his commute is anywhere from 45 minutes to an hour. Anyway, we are trying to ease into tight budget status and hoping unemployment comes quickly. Tony has been busying himself with projects around the house but of course everything he wants to do will take some money. We have money built up in savings but it still scares me that this could take a while. What is weird is that the job was picking up so we are super puzzled as to why they got laid off. Oh well, I will never understand that whole industry and how the union works and such. Just going to give this all up the Lord, he has always taken great care of us and he has never ever given us too much to handle, even when tony was laid off for a whole year. We always manage!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Still Working Out

I just realized I haven't updated this blog lately and wanted to comment on my working out. I am still taking from my private trainer, every other week just about and still love it. I am not getting into the gym as much as I would like, only 2 or 3 times a week, but this is the prime time for me to be outside. These lovely spring days have me wanting to mow, weed eat, work in the garden or work in the flower bed or work with the dogs. I am hardly ever inside and hardly ever still! I still haven't lost any weight, am around 137 which is still way to much for me but I am probably in the best shape of my life. My cardio seems to be through the roof right now and I am continuing to push it as hard as I can. I like the change up of routines, love new stuff every couple of weeks. Keeps you from getting bored. I am also drinking lots of water. I have a water bottle that holds 20 ounces, at home and one at work, and I keep them filled and nearby at all times. I think yesterday alone I drank 60 ounces of water. Not bad from going from 0 ounces a day to 60! As long as I crave it, I am going to keep drinking it. My eating habits, well, lets just say they have improved somewhat. I am teaching or taking class twice a week so those two nights I have a bowl of raisin bran or a protein bar for dinner and that is it. Tony and I still eat out way too much but we are getting better. I haven't been eating out as much for lunch but that will probably change as the weather gets better. Walking down to the various places in aggieville during the summer when all of the students are gone is so much fun! I have started drinking alot more coffee in the morning which is not good because i like the frufru coffee that is loaded with fat and calories. All in all, I am happy where I am at right now and hope I can keep it up!

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Week two with the personal trainer

I have to report that I am having a great time working with my personal trainer. So far she has shown me many things and has taught me how to use alot of the equipment including the weight machines. I really feel like we are making great progress, not so much with weight as I haven't even weighed myself but with my fitness overall. I can tell I am already gaining strength and stamina and have moved up on the weight machines very quickly. I am still doing no-impact cardio though. I took a break last week and went and walked on the track with the dogs and my leg was killing me the next day:( I sure thought it was doing better but I guess it makes a huge difference between no impact and concrete! I also noticed that my leg was killing me on sunday, probably due to the running on the packed dirt. You wouldn't think that running for four 30-60 second runs would hurt you that much but apparently my leg is that sensitive.

I am staying with basically the same plan this week, 20 minute interval training with the elliptical or other non-impact machines (learned the rowing machine and the hand bike this week but still love the elliptical the most) and then doing the weight training circuit. I am staying away from the ab machine and the leg curl machine but doing abs on the big ball and doing all of the other leg machines. I am a little concerned that my upper body strength isn't coming along as fast as I would like but pleased with everything else. I have to admit to myself that I am 32 now and things happen differently. Urgh, the joys of getting older! The soreness seems to be getting less in duration and intensity which is nice. Getting up and not being able to walk cause I am so sore is a bitch! I only got in three times going to the gym last week and I had committed to four but one of those days, I walked two miles on the track instead of being in a gym. This week, I hope to get in four times but of course we are leaving on friday to be gone all weekend to Carthage so I will have to work out Monday-Thursday with no breaks. I know myself and I will not be able to get up and work out. I am just not motivated at all in the morning! I can also tell that my eating is mirroring my working out. I knew it would, just needed that kick start!

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Can light trim is in finally!

Okay so this is our new can light trim. I never even noticed the trim before but apparently this looks better. Leave it to an electrician to have specific things to change, much like can light trim and can light bulbs. Like I said, I never even noticed that they looked bad! We just ordered the new switches for all of the lights last week so they should be here probably next week. Again, I had no clue how many types of switches and dimmers there are and had no clue what the heck Decora even was before this. After this all comes in, we will probably take a break for a while and pay some stuff off. I hate to say it, but my plan of buying a little bit per paycheck didn't work because Tony took one step into the lighting store and started ordering stuff left and right. I want to go slow with this room and pay things off so after we get the switches and all of the switch plates in place, we are stopping for now. I am sure based on the sconce lighting tony picked out of the catalog, we are in for another couple of hundred dollars:( I actually haven't seen anything that I really, really like and wish we could put can lights in the lower ceiling, but tony is the wiring guru and says it has to be sconce lighting. It is so dark over there at night that I don't think sconce lighting will be enough. I may have to just trust him like I trusted him on the track lighting and see what he comes up with!

Thursday, February 25, 2010

New Gym-New Trainer

I guess blogging about my weight did help me as I started looking into gyms and trainers in our area. While I found all gyms/personal trainers were very expensive, I found a trainer/gym in our area and I am so excited! We met with the trainer last night to tour the gym and both Tony and I loved it! We had no clue how big it was as we were told it was just a "room with some equipment". It is more than that, about 4 rooms with lots of really nice equipment. When we went in last night, it was fairly full, but still there was lots of machines with no one on them. I would love to try and work out in the am, but I know me and I am not very motivated to give up my sleep to go work out. I have found that either right after work or around 8ish at night is my best time to work out. I do know it keeps me from sleeping, but not too bad. I have signed up for 5 training sessions, one a week for five weeks. Tony thinks I should do 10 but 5 is all I can afford right now. The gym is a 24 hour gym that you come and go as you please with a magnetic key. I am so excited because it is literally 2 minutes away from our house and open all the time. There is no supervision but both Tony and I have worked out in gyms before so this isn't an issue for us. I hope, eventually, Tony will take over my personal training so we don't have to pay a personal trainer but for now, it is a good idea.

I have been walking on the treadmill the past two days, just trying to test out my leg and see what it will handle. It does feel very tight and a tiny bit sore but i have been stretching alot and icing alot and trying to be proactive. I did jog a little yesterday but only for about half a mile. The gym had several low-impact, no impact machines that you could do cardio on so that will be nice to not be pounding my joints into a treadmill or a concrete track. I am hoping that Tony and I will go tonight and get ourselves acquainted with our surroundings. I hope this is a positive step towards us eating better, getting in better shape and health, and maybe helping tony to not snore as much so I can sleep at night.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Weight gain-dieting-yuck

This has been bothering me for a while so maybe if I write it out, it will spur me into action. I haven't been exercising since I hurt my leg last august and because of my lack of inaction and my increase in eating, I have put on a considerable amount of weight. I am not sure exactly how much as I haven't been on a scale in while but i am probably hovering pretty close to around 137ish (was in lower 120s), which is way, way, way too much for my short frame. I don't mind being in the 120s as long as I am exercising daily but this is way to much weight and it is embarrassing. None of my clothes fit and I have a muffin top. I battled this battle before when I lived in Colorado and won by using the weight watchers program (lost 25 lbs), but I am sick of weight watchers. I hate paying the fees, hearing the lectures, loosing the weight and not being able to commit for lifetime. It is a great program, I always loose weight when I get serious about it, but I just cannot maintain it. I start feeling super guilty about everything I put in my mouth and Tony and I fight alot because i refuse to eat out and I have to cook because he won't watch what he cooks with. We eat a ton of processed foods just because I can figure out exactly how many points. It turns me into a very angry food freak who is always hungry and always longing for certain foods, even if you can have smaller portions of said foods and still be okay. The most weight I gain is after I have been doing weight watchers as I seem to go on a food binge.

I love the feeling I get when I loose weight but have recently grown tired of battling my weight. I am not a huge fruit or veggie eater and I don't like cooking so I eat out alot. Tony and I seem to bond over eating out and both of us get very lazy with eating out. We are both hungry when we get home so we want food right then and he is usually tired so we eat out. I am so sick of eating out but can't break the cycle. It is so convenient, quick and yummy. Just last night, was thinking boy, Mexican cheesy, gooey food sounds so good and of course as soon as I got in the door, tony said, "let's go eat Mexican". Even though I had made a plan to start back walking on the treadmill last night, all will power went out the window with two words, mexican food. I hate being this way! I also hate not working out. This is the worst shape i have been in. I would like to blame it all on my leg, and that is a huge part of it, but I can't blame it all on my leg. There are so many gyms in our area and we have a treadmill but I have been super lazy here lately. I just want to go to work, come home, and play with the pups and go to bed. I know working out would give me more energy but I have come up with a thousand reasons not to.

Funny thing, had to stand up alot yesterday because i was working at my bench alot and my leg is super sore today just from standing up. I LOVED running, but fear that with my leg still bothering me, will never be able to run again. I have AKC nationals at the end of march so on one hand, don't want to injure it further, but on the other hand, need to be in shape to be able to run. I wish i could just afford a personal trainer. I do best when given specific goals and am held accountable. That is why weight watchers has worked because I had to meet goals or pay money. I have bought gym memberships before to try this theory on my own, but it never has worked, I just don't go. I feel so self-conscious just going to a gym so I either need a group class or a personal trainer to get me going. We have a fitness center here at the university, but again, even though I am twice the age of most of the students that work out there, they make me self-conscious. Even the student trainers are expensive and with our recent fun of tony being laid off and our unexpected house redecorating, money has been tight and we are just starting to recover financially to the point where I feel comfortable paying extra money.

I was reading an article the other day that said even if you are much smaller than your hubby, you will match eating patterns and I think this is true. I use to match the eating pattern of my brother (who know weighs 220 and did play professional football for 8 or so years), but that was when I had the metabolism fueled by a nuclear power house. Now, I am in my 30s and I can just look at a piece of chocolate and gain a pound in my ass, whether I eat it or not. I need a kick in the ass to get motivated and get going. I keep saying to myself, if i go up a pants size, I will start dieting and exercising, yet i am still squeezing into my size 6 jeans. Most all of my short sleeve shirts are way too tight so maybe when the weather warms up, that will be the impetus I need to loose weight.

This blog seems really random but this is just crap that is poring out of my head right now. I know the answers, just need that motivation to get going. Now on to finishing off my sweet tea:)

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Lighting is up, now on to the sconce lighting

The track lighting is in and the can light trim is ordered. Never take an electrician into a lighting store as you will never get him out. Funny thing though, we looked at the exact same track lighting in both the lighting store and Home Depot, and it was three times as much at the lighting store! We did order the can light trim since we couldn't find it at Home depot and of course Tony (who can't focus on one room at a time) bought trim for the bathroom can lights, which I didn't even know needed new trim. Oh well, it does look nice and he put new bulbs in that are softer and make the whole bathroom look better. I guess when Tony does the trim in the dining room, we will be replacing the trim in the entire the house and we will have to decide if we are keeping the vanity/bathroom mirror or getting a different one. We had painted the bathroom a while back but again, had issues since the wall in there is orange peel as well.

Here is a picture of our bathroom after painting and outfitting it with new towels and bathmat. You can't really see the can lights unfortunately.

Anyway, now we have to pick out what sconce lighting we are going to put in the dining room where the low ceiling is. We looked at several options at the lighting store but Tony didn't like any of them. We went home armed with catalogs and are still trying to figure out what we like. Looks like we are only going to put two in. Tony is still working on the phone jack and the last outlet with the new switch covers and sockets and we have the 3 way gang switch plate cover ordered for the big switches that control the can lights, the track lights and the soon to be sconce lights. Tony wants decora switches so he found what he likes, but we are going to have to order them as they didn't have black. Funny thing, originally, tony was going to tear down the trim from the windows and closet door and that was going to be part of the redo when he started working on trim. Now, with the colors and the lighting, we are kind of digging the trim. We shall see if we still feel that way when he does start doing trim work.

I did go sneak to the two antique stores we have in wamego and look at antique buffets. There are two that I like but really need to look around more. One store has a very ornate oak buffet that is a lighter wood and would go with the current trim color but if we go with a darker floor and darker trim, it won't match. There is a darker wood buffet at the other antique store but it is not ornate and is not in as good of shape. It has some veneer on it and there is some damage that probably won't be able to be fixed, but it is darker wood and very solid and sturdy. I just need to look around more as the furniture will be the last thing we put in.

Funny how this project is spinning into several other projects. So because of the painting not making clean lines, we can see green in the living room. I had gotten some samples of the glidden paint, trying to find something we could paint the living room that would go with the green, since you can see it. I have tried 5 neutral colors but nothing is really catching my eye.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Update on Dining Room

I just realized that I hadn't updated my blog lately about what we are doing in the dining room. We did decide to paint and tony picked out three colors, truly olive, garnett, and some shade of white. After several coats, the dining room is looking really good. I will post pictures when I get home since I don't have them on this computer but the colors really look great together and I have to give a shout out to Home Depot for helping tony pick them and giving us exactly the right amount for painting. Tony has really done a great job and I am so thrilled to see him so excited about a project involving the house, even if there are things that need to be done that are more important.

We did have a minor issue, even though we taped everything off, because of the finish on our walls (orange peel) the paint did not make definite lines so tony had to go back and hand fix lots of spots. Overall, it looks really great and we have caught the painting bug! Paint is on sale right now at Home Depot so we have been looking at colors for the living room and front bedroom. Glidden has these cute little bottles of paint that you can buy and try on your walls so we have been trying several to see what goes the best. I can tell you, the card and the paint on your wall never looks the same so it is worth it to have little splotches of color everywhere for a while! We also had a great friend come over and (thanks Kim) and help us pick out colors and give us advice on lighting. Tony is very keen on having good lighting since he is an electrician and has lots of great ideas. He is replacing the can lights in the dining room with nicer looking ones and then adding track lighting. The lower ceiling is also going to get some new can lights since there is no lighting whatsoever on that side of the room other than the blinds letting natural light in. We had played with the idea of floor lamps but I vetoed that idea. I wanted a chandelier but the ceiling is so low that anything hanging down is probably not a good idea. I always hated the chandelier that was already in the dining room because of its location, even though it was really in the center of the room. It hung way down from the uppermost part of the ceiling and just looked out of place. We will be eventually getting a proper dining room table, more than likely a rectangular size and I am hoping antique for that room. I also have my eye on a beautiful antique oak buffet but this will be waaay down the road for now.

Last weekend, we were in Lawrence so we went to their local Home depot and got new sockets and switch plate covers. Who knew something as little as that can make such a big difference? We are also looking at the decora type of switches for the main light switches in that room. Again, who knew there were so many options in switches? We also need to order our vent covers for the room since we have the switch plates now so everything matches. I am so excited! I never knew I would get this into redoing a room. I am hoping we can also start looking at flooring options so we can start saving up for that. Dog show season has started so we are gone most weekends now so it is hard when most places close at 5. Home Depot didn't have any flooring we really liked so we are probably going to have to go with a flooring center's options instead.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

The House

I am getting overwhelmed right now so need to sit and blog. Our house is becoming a huge money pit and I am scared. Let me tell you about the latest foray into trying to fix the house up. Our neighbors had told us that we had hardwood floors under the carpet downstairs. We were very excited as I really had wanted a house with all hardwood. It is so much easier to deal with when you have pets because accidents always happen no matter how well trained your pets are. Our favorite house when we were looking to buy had gorgeous hardwood floors but the backyard was the size of a postage stamp and I knew tony would not help me walk dogs so we passed on it. Anyway, we had decided to pull up the carpet in the living room first and viola, the hardwood was there underneath it, looking good with minimal amount of repair needed. There is a patch that needs to be taken out and redone but overall, a little sanding, a little wood putty here and there, and a little protective stain and it would be looking fabulous. Tony also had decided to redo the baseboards as well, which is fine with me.

We were so excited that everything looked good but really wanted to see if there was hardwood under the dining room area floor as well. We were told that the dining room use to be the kitchen and that the current kitchen was an add on. This concerned us as in a kitchen, you will have all of your appliances which could damage the quality of the floor. For that very reason, we waited for a long time to do anything to the dining room floor. Also, they had built a platform over the floor to raise up the room. The dining room doesn't have doors so the kitchen, dining room, and living room are just joined as one big room so we thought that the step up was built to make it more like a separate room. Well, tony is laid off so he thought now would be a good time to get in there and rip up the platform and look at the floor so when we had the money, we could refinish it all at the same time. Unfortunately for us, there was no floor under the platform, only dirt. Currently, we just have the plywood platform down and will probably have to live with it that way for a while till we can afford to lay down a new floor. I don't want to just lay some thing down cheap and I sure as hell don't want anymore carpet. I think i would walk on dirt versus having anymore carpet laid down. Carpet is something I really hate, especially having pets. It seems as though our very obedient, good dogs were using the carpet in both rooms as a restroom and we didn't know. I have a very sensitive nose and I never smelled pee but they were peeing. Tony also had to rip up the baseboards to get the carpet tack strips up. I think at this point, since everything is so torn up, we might as well go ahead and paint the room if we are going to paint. I prefer white walls but Tony likes color and he has picked out a green color that I sort of like. I am sure it will look good when he gets it on the wall. He also has some great ideas about lighting but of course that will have to wait till we have more of a steady income.

I will try and post some pics of before and after so everyone can see our progress. I hope tony goes back to work next week so progress may be slow!

Monday, January 18, 2010


Today was one of those days in which i wanted to strangle my hubby and hug him at the same time. You see, my hubby is a very, very hard worker at work. He is an electrician and has been a foreman on several big jobs and he is a perfectionist. He takes his work very seriously and has had several apprentices that he has taught. Unfortunately, the hard work ends at work and none of that pride or sense of accomplishment seem to bleed over into his home life. My hubby is the laziest hard working person i have ever met and i have said this to his face many times. Let me explain what I mean.

Having grown up with a step-father who was a carpenter, I should have known things would be like this. Our house always looked like it was in some state of dilapidation yet everyone else's houses he worked on looked great! I remember the frustration of my mom, wanting him to finish projects and begging and pleading to no avail. I feel that frustration now for sure. You see, when we bought this house, I was so excited because the excuse for years had been that we rented so why should we invest any money in fixing up a rental house or the property. This saying for him also applied to yard work so consequently, I did all yard work and we had about 2 acres of land to tend to. I never minded it, was a great way to stay fit and in shape and get a great tan but then I took on our elderly landlord's yard which was another 2 or more acres and I was doing lots and lots of yard work every few days. I was always taught by my step dad to be very proud of your yard as his yard was his baby. He would lovingly get down on hands and knees and pluck weeds or multiple times a day spread chemicals or fertilizers. He (and mom and I and Al) would dutiful mow the yard so that it looked its best, even if that meant in the summer 2 or so times a week. We had about 9 acres but didn't mow all of that but a big portion of it. I brought those values to my own home and it didn't matter to me whether or not i rented or owned, the yard was a reflection of me and my values in a way. Not so for hubby. He didn't care at all what others thought of the yard. I think if there wasn't a city ordinance, he would let it get as tall as he was and not care. I had tried the whole spiel of I am not going to do this so that i would look bad and he would feel guilty and mow but that never worked. It would just look worse and worse and I would get madder and madder.

Fast forward to a few years ago when we bought this house. I really thought things would be so different. The house came with a small garage that was a great space for making a workshop. It needed work and needed power but he was an electrician so I thought this would be no problem. Well, of course that hasn't happened at all. Hubby does nothing around the house that resembles work. Even if it is the simplest of tasks, I do everything around the house. There are only three things that i leave in his hands and I mostly end up doing them anyway as I hate putting off stuff or seeing things look bad. Hubby's tasks are take out the garbage, mow the tiny yard we now have, and weed eat. I do all of these except weed eat as the weed eater is a monster of a thing and I have no clue how to use it. Our garbage is collected in the alleyway out by our garage so one must walk through the backyard or walk around the fence, a five minute task at the most. I use to even try and make him actually take the garbage out of the cans but i can't even depend on him to do that either. He will let the garbage pile up the point it is falling out. I now just empty all garbage cans and sack it up for him. Then what happens is it goes out to the deck and he is suppose to take it to the back. Well, what usually happens is it sits out there for several days, sometimes even for a week. Then the dogs either get into it or I get tired of looking at it and I trudge around to the back and put it out.

I am so envious of people who have marriages in which the husbands do stuff around the house. Several of my friends split up the work load so that no one person is doing everything. Tony had told me several times that he does not intend on helping with any of the house work. If I ask him to help, I usually get attitude so I have learned not to ask, it isn't worth it. He has gotten better about the yard work but it isn't important to him. I place a lot of importance in the way the yard looks, including the flower bed in front of our house, and especially if there is a festival in town. I can remember one fourth of July and our yard looked like a jungle. It didn't bother him in the least that it looked bad and that we are only a block away from the park where they have the fair and set off the fireworks. I had been gone to a dog show or I would have mowed it myself but instead did so when I got back. I guess in a way it is good that he doesn't care what others think about us but pride in our house and our yard is important to me.

Cleaning this house is quite a task for me. We have four inside long haired dogs so I commonly have to at least vacuum and sweep the floor twice a week. He helps with none if this and we have almost 2000 square feet to maintain. I do all the laundry including washing, folding, and putting up all of his and my clothes. I am sure that if I left things out for him to put up or fold, it would never get done. I can't stand piles or clutter. This is a personal reason that I wish to not discuss on this blog. He already has a pile on top of his dresser that I continually clean off and he goes back to piling stuff on. I really can't win for losing. To his defense, he does take the laundry baskets up the stairs and down the stairs but that is it. I so wish he would help me more, especially now that we don't have a dishwasher. I am spending a lot of time washing dishes since he is a fabulous cook and will commonly use every pot and pan in our house to make a meal. That is one thing that he does, although not every night, but he does cook and it always taste wonderful. I am not a cook and would probably have to live off of hamburger helper, scrambled eggs, and fast food if left up to my own devices. When we moved in, we had a dishwasher but it has been out of commission for several weeks now. I have asked and asked for him to look at it and he did look at it once but that has been it. We thought it had a small piece of metal blocking the middle spinning device but that ended up not being what was wrong with it. He hasn't looked at it since so I am spending lots of time washing dishes when I could be doing other things. I guess I am just a spoiled rotten brat but I am getting a very bad attitude about dishes to the point that I would rather him not cook. In our old house, we didn't have a dishwasher so I washed and dried the dishes but the sinks were set up for this. In this house, we aren't set up for that because of the dishwasher being there so I need to either reconfigure the whole counter space or he needs to fix the dishwasher.

This is also a huge bone for me to pick. Again I am a hater of clutter and try to avoid it at all expense. This is hubbys corner in the kitchen. It is always a mess. It is a huge embarrassment to me because it always looks so horrible. Anyone who comes into our back door sees this huge clutter. It actually did extend all the way to where the yellow canister is sitting but I had to push things down so I could dry out dishes. It is filled with various things out of his pocket, papers, keys, change (notice there is a change jar that is present but change never makes it into the jar unless i put it in there), tools, pencils, and other things. Don't ask him to clean this as this corner has started huge fights. I don't even try but have tried to organize piles on occasion to no avail.

Unfinished projects are everywhere at this house and include the gate, the non-functioning dishwasher, the hole in our ceiling in the master bedroom, the hot water issue and the floor in the living room. I really wish I was handy with tools and I would just fix things myself and be done. Some of these projects have been on-going for years. I just don't want to be one of those people who does nothing till they sell their house and then they fix everything and wonder why they didn't do that in the first place. I want to enjoy this house while I live here, not when i leave it. We have slowly filled our house with wonderful furniture and need a few more pieces to have the house full but I do wish we could fix the cosmetic issues as well. I want to be proud of our house, to have people over and show them how we have fixed the house up. Instead I end up making apologies for the floor, for the hole in the ceiling, for the clutter. I want to stop doing this but need him to help me!

I know that no one is perfect and I don't expect him to be. Believe me, I love him dearly, he has been very supportive of me and my "addictions" but I wish he would help me more around the house and the yard. I wish he would have pride in the house and the yard. I wish he would love me enough to want to help me, not have to be made to feel guilty to helping (which usually doesn't work). I want him to get off of the couch on Saturday mornings when I am in my cleaning mood and volunteer for some of the cleaning jobs to ease my workload. I want him to be proactive in mowing the yard in the summer when it needs to be done a few times a week. I wish he would finish some of these projects that have been hanging around for so long. He has great ideas of what he wants to do with the house and I would like to see them implemented, but not until the current projects are done. I want to be able to talk to him about the issues i have with his lack of help without him getting mad. I will be reading this to him and I hope that he can understand I want things to change and be better.

Friday, January 1, 2010

Happy New Year!

What a year it has been! Miller got his MACH and we added yet another aussie to our pack. Berry turned 12, Miller turned 10 and Harley 6. We had a couple of foster dogs, both with their own unique set of issues (chopper was a poop eater and bella had the energy level of the sun) but both great dogs that went to great homes. We had ups and downs competition wise and we had two sets of nationals on other sides of the coast. We met new friends and said good bye to old ones. I started teaching along with my friends at All Star agility and have met some great friends that have been awesome to teach. I also started teaching basic obedience and agility lessons privately. I have learned alot about teaching and alot about teaching the dog owner and not just the dog.

I have been to several very awesome concerts of some of my child hood and adult hood favorites including the mighty METALLICA, AC/DC, Down, The Sword, The Answer, local favorites VSC, Decimation, Sorrow by Truth, Fleetwood Mac, Nine Inch Nails, Megadeath, Warbringer, Suicide Silence, Jane's Addiction, and Poison to name just a few. Tony and I have met some great friends as well going to these concerts and hope to rock out with them in the future. We already have tickets to AIC and would go back and see Metallica again if they come close. Of course we will always be at our local dive bar, supporting live local music such as VSC, Decimation, SBT, Black Gasoline, Hellanova and many others. We even go see our local Red State Blues Band sometimes as well.

Tony has been working constantly the whole year which is a huge blessing for the field he works in. Electricians are out of work, some most of the year, due to the lack of work because of the poor economy. While part of the year he worked in Salina which meant getting up at 4:30 am and driving an hour both ways, the other part he worked in either Topeka or Manhattan. I have also have been blessed with a great job and a great boss who is very understanding of my passion of dog showing. I have lost two of my favorite people at work, one due to having a baby and moving and one due to having a baby and deciding to be a full time mom. I miss them alot but they are having a great time being moms for sure!

Got to see my mom a few times this year, once at AKC nationals in North Carolina and once for USDAA nationals in AZ and then in St. Louis at USASA nationals. While I am qualified for AKC nationals, who knows what the future brings for USDAA nationals since I haven't shown since USDAA nationals this year due to Miller's injury. I have met a ton of new folks this year going to agility shows and am super excited that Tony is back showing harley. Agility friends are awesome and I sure have missed seeing them at the shows we have missed due to miller not showing. I haven't been back to TN in a few years so haven't seen most of my family or tony's family so hoping to get to see them this year for sure.

Goals or hopes for this year is to have miller stay injury free, continue to train Deuce and get him ready to show, and for tony to work on Harley's MACH. I would like to take a vacation with just tony and I with no dogs and also get back to TN and see family. I hope tony can continue working and that I get to continue teaching as I love it. I hope everyone has good health and stays safe and I hope you all have a great 2010!